// adventures //

“Let us step into the night and pursue that flighty temptress, adventure.”

Being an introvert mostly consists of late-night reading, series binge watching and mainly staying within the comfort of my own duvet. In the past month, my life has changed drastically and thus has shaped me into a brighter & stronger version of me. 

Adventuring outside of my humble "Hobbit Hole" (my room) has always been a great difficulty for me in the past. Due to dealing with anxiety, before I even begun to think of placing a foot outside of my comfort, the familiar fox would invade my body, leading my mind to wonder, "Will you really enjoy that?" or "There's going to be loads of people there, how will you even begin to cope?" and so forth. 

Dealing with loss and the idea that there is going to be someone absent in my life, somehow managed to shape me into a person who can't wait to leave her "Hobbit Hole" and resulted in me finding new & brighter " Hobbit Holes" in the areas I have never even begun to think of exploring half a year ago. 

There are still days where I retreat into my familiar "hobbit hole" and lay watching my fairy lights, wishing I was somewhere else while they lay flickering on my window sill. That's okay. Sometimes, dealing with something excruciatingly painful can help shape you into a brighter version of you. A version who is prepared for the worst to come. A version who is doing okay despite having every reason not to be. A version who is an adventurer who lives for the thrill of the perfect sunset & having moments of spontaneity. A version who is able to manage the fox of anxiety. 

A version who is okay.